OT: Gen 18:20-19:38
You may have caught on to this, but I stay a day ahead of our reading schedule. When I wake up in the morning, I post that day's blog, and then read and blog for the next day. This morning, however, I read and didn't blog. Instead, I have pondered on and off throughout the day just what was wrong with Lot. And now at the end of the day, I still have no real insight.
Well, I do know that he was obviously and extremely screwed up by his culture. While he didn't go all in for the hedonism, and he had enough civility not to let his houseguests be gang-raped, his actions reflect just how morally compromised he had become. For instance, he thought it was acceptable host behavior to substitute his daughters to be raped by an angry mob. That was apparently Lot's version of being "protective." To his credit, he does believe the angels when they say that God is going to destroy the city. Of course, having a sex-crazed homosexual mob literally beating down his door probably lent credence to their accusations of Sodom. But then on the other hand, he hesitates when it is time to leave. And then, when they say to flee to the mountains, Lot starts whining that that's too hard, and that he wants to go somewhere closer. I mean, what the heck? What part of "rain down burning sulfur" makes you think that this is the time to stand around and split hairs?
All of that is weird enough. But I truly cannot understand what he does next. I mean, put yourself in Lot's shoes. You just had to flee your home. You lost all your possessions, and it is just you and your daughters left. What do you do? Where do you go? If only you had a rich relative near enough to see the smoke, a godly relative who had earlier pleaded with God for the righteous of the city...
But Lot chooses not to do that. Instead, he chooses the oh-so-alluring option of...living alone in caves. Why??? Did he and Abraham have a falling out? Maybe after Abraham rescued him the first time, he didn't want Lot to return to Sodom. Maybe they fought over that. Maybe they fought over Lot's lifestyle. Maybe Lot was just too proud to come, hat in hand, to his uncle. I have no idea. But I just can't fathom his decision.
And of course, Lot was not the only one negatively influenced by his culture. His two daughters cooked up a hair-brained scheme to have children by their father. This is one seriously distorted family. Hearing about them makes me wonder how much my culture is distorting my morals? If Lot could see himself the way God saw him, I bet he would be shocked. I wonder how much the same idea applies to me.
NT: Matt. 6:25-7:15
I love the "worry" passage. Even as a teenager, it was incredibly encouraging and comforting to me. Jesus is so right. There is no point in worrying about tomorrow. Each day has enough trouble of its own. And if we seek first God's Kingdom and His righteousness, there will be no point to worrying about those things anyway.
Waiting until tonight to blog wasn't a great idea. My brain is fried, and the concept of not judging, the idea of the speck and the plank, and the idea of God giving good gifts to his children all seem so simple and straightforward. My brain can't get past the simplicity to find something to comment on. But if anyone else has a thought, please share!
Psalms 8: 1-9
What a beautiful psalm! Unlike mine, David's brain was very capable of pondering deep thoughts here, as he looked at the magnificence of God's creation and wondered, "What is man, that you are mindful of him? The son of man, that you care for him?" (v 4). Whenever I look at the stars, I am struck by similar thoughts (probably influenced by this psalm). I see the stars, and then I picture how infinitesimal my planet is from the point of view of those stars. And how I'm just a speck on this planet, and what do my problems matter in the big scheme of things? I find that in itself an oddly comforting thought, but the idea that despite my tininess, God still sees me, is just mind-blowing to me. What an amazing God.
Prov. 2: 6-15
Whenever I get to this point in Proverbs, I'm like, "Okay, you sold me! Let's let the learning begin!" Reading all the benefits of wisdom makes me want it all the more.